Reviving that childish love of art!

 

I remember being younger, drawing my sona everyday, and just being so happy to..create something! over time, the goal being popularity and money took over that love of artwork i had, it really felt like i no longer had a style of my own, and only created art for other people.

Recently i made something just for me, and i love it.

 Something unlike some of my other art, i worked hard and made something entirely brand new, just for me!! I think this has changed how i view my artwork, i've never felt so much joy drawing in a long time.

 

 

 

12:00 AM
Listening to grief ii (demo) by BulldogEyes

 

I'm home and i don't know what to do

 So, i've been home for a while, i meant to update my blog but forgot!

I really haven't drawn, i've been playing the sims and job hunting. Right now i feel so alone, i wanna go out and hang with friends, but i often feel like they aren't really my friends. I feel like i'm the kind of person their parents ask them to hang with because i'm so socially awkward. I just want someone to go to the park with, or the movies, or to their house to sit around. 

Anyways my sad rant is over, I want to grow up, quit acting like a kid. So, i'm closing commissions tonight, gonna work on my personal work right! I don't think i'm gonna get anywhere though. My life feels so troublesome at times.

 

 

11:16 PM
Listening to Bullet with Butterfly Wings by The Smashing Pumpkins